Here we are indeed....past the halfway mark, not by much, but definitely over the hump and on the downhill slide.
So before the skinny guy left, I read all the books and went to all the briefings and we talked about our expectations for this forced time-out from reality. I had goals...lofty goals and high expectations of what I could accomplish in the time I would be on my own. I was going to be the model Army wife...I was going to volunteer, finish my degree, clean the house top to bottom, keep the yard mowed, raise perfectly scheduled, well behaved children, lose 20 lbs and tone up, save us a ton of money, get a nice tan, take care of the pool, send the most perfect care packages....OH boy! I really thought I was going to be Wonder Woman, Super Mom.
Today it dawned on me, this deployment so far has KICKED my ass! I should have kept my goals more realistic like keep the yard from looking like a jungle (not too hard in the midst of record breaking temps and a drought), be sure to shower at least every other day, and keep the children healthy and alive. I realized that I am NOT Wonder Woman or Super Mom. I am what I am. I do the best that I can most everyday...some days I just don't have it in me to smile all day and pretend that I'm not missing that skinny guy more than I imagined I would. But I made a vow to myself today that the goals I set out to originally accomplish, screw 'em! :) New day, new goals...putting the first half in the past and working on things I KNOW I can get done going into the homestretch!
I got this babe, I got this!
